Cancer is winning...

Walking into the room where your cousin is laying there.. dying. She can't talk. Everyone comes to see her. The doctors say she will not make it much longer. She is a beautiful, strong woman, mother, family member.

It all started about uh two years ago (soon after my great grandma when home to God) when my 2 cousin got breast cancer. She went through chemo. She did really good. She lost hair, some weight but stayed strong. After removing the breast, and the chemo treatment doctors said "She is cancer free." About 3 months ago she went for a checkup... cancer was back and stronger than ever. She went through chemo again, lost all her hair and lost too much weight. After that they checked her, cancer is in every little part of her body. She is eaten up with Cancer. About a few days ago she was put in the hospital told she would not make it through this weekend (it's Saturday {4/13/13} now). Yesterday morning they moved her to a hospice house. This morning me, my mom and sister went to see her. She did not look like the Steph I knew. She looked so... different. She was sleeping. She looked beautiful.. She IS beautiful. She wanted to talk but could not get the words out so she went back to sleep. I can't believe that she is just sitting there dying... but there is nothing else we can do.. she is eaten up with cancer. I just want anyone who is reading this I am sorry... If you have EVER been in my spot I pray for you so hard. The only person to get Cancer in my family (other than her) was my grandma when I was a newborn but thankful I did not lose her. I am losing someone now. Her son is losing his mom. Her mom and dad is losing their daughter. Her brothers are losing their sister. My family is losing a family wonderful person. But she will be safe. She will be with our granny in heaven. She will be with the father of all. That's what I try to think about. I have to be strong. I will be strong. I love you Steph, we all love you.

xoxo,
Brittany <3