Brittany Ann Nicole M*

Hi. People know me as Brittany, but my whole name is Brittany Ann Nicole M*. I am fifteen year's old & currently a sophomore in high school.  I live with my mom & her boyfriend. I have a 18 year old half sister. She lives with my grandma & pawpaw. Soon she will be a mommy♥. Her dad left before she was born. She is not suffering from that since she never met him. My dad left when I was 4. It hurt more than anything every. Him and my mom was married but It just didn't work out. He had 3 other kids, witch happens to be all boys, with another woman before my mom and him found each other. When he left I never got to see my brothers again.  It still bothers me knowing that my dad nor his family want's absolutely nothing to do with me and the fact that they love my 3 brothers more than anything hurts my heart is in so many ways. After 11 years of no child support and no contact, I gave up but with a broken heart. How can you just walk away from your kid? The five most important people in my life, not including God, is my Grandma, Grandpa, Great-Grandpa, mom & sister. If anything happen to them, I don't know what I would do. My grandma & grandpa have helped my mom raise me and my sister both. When my mom was working they would keep us and so forth. Me and my mom don't have the mom-daughter relationship at all. Her & my sister are VERY close. I don't like to tell my mom ANYTHING. Me and my sister used to fight & fuss every day but now I can't even say one mean thing to her. She is going through A LOT and it kills me to see her hurt. I love her so much. I don't have many friend. The only friend I have is my bestfriend/boyfriend. He means the absolute word to me. He has ALWAYS been here for me. He understands me and know me more than anyone and still loves me, for me. He is the ONLY person outside of SOME family members that I can trust. I have been hurt A LOT. Over & over. I smile everyday and it hides the fact I cried myself to sleep the night before. My boyfriend, Josh, knows I am hurting. He does everything he can to make me feel better. I hate when people tell me I need to forget what my dad did to me. No. You cant forget that you was like 5 years old calling him and he saying he don't want to speak with you. I was 5. I didn't understand & now 10 years later, I still don't. I was his daughter. He ruined my life. I cant trust nobody. I keep my distant when it comes to people, I try not to though. I try to hang out with some people. Whatever. Throughout my whole life I have been through a lot. I love Justin Bieber & not just because of his looks; He has inspired me in so many ways. I now know that if I never say never & keep on trying, I can do anything I set my mind to. Thank you Justin Drew Bieber ♥